What is the past tense of dream

 I originally wanted to title this post "A dream come true", but after the spell checker said dreamt is not an actual word (lol? native English speakers please confirm), I googled "what is the past tense of dream" - and it sounds way cooler. So here we go...:)

Now that after the hottest month of my poker playing life ever I can hesitantly say that I probably am settled at 5/T (mixed with 3/6, occasionally 2/4), that was one of my dream for a long time. I definitely think that was the dream that took the most time to achieve, and (once again, probably) here I am, at the edge of being a full-time 5/T player (even though I hate it when people say I'm a X/Y player - I just mean the highest stakes I'm willing to play regularly).

You know, everybody has to have dreams in poker I think. Without these goals, that you don't even know if you'll achieve or not, you just play without purpose and motivation. Of course it's not necessarily a higher limit, or something, but still something you can measure yourself to. I remember back when I was grinding .02/.04 and .05/.1 I was thinking how cool it would be to play on .25/.5 - and when I got there, it felt like I was a really good player to achieve that. And, to be honest, I was given the circumstances and what 'good player' means at those stakes. Then the next dream-step for me was playing 1/2, the gate of small stakes games, playing for dollars instead of cents. My first shots to 1/2 took place around early 2011 (I started playing LHE in February 2010 with $14 as my total bankroll, deciding I'll never ever deposit if I go bust). From there my only goal was to move up to 5/T. 1.5 years later here I am, playing the stakes I dreamt of for so long.

But the way to get here was not even close to clear. At February 2012 I went to Gibraltar to have my first ever job at PokerStrategy as Hungarian Community Manager. It was a really big setback for my game, I could hardly play after work, since I was tired and exhausted, and there were better things to do at the time. However in ~5 months time after being close to scoop the SCOOP FL event, and final tabling on some MSOP events, I was ready to leave work, come home and be a full time pro on 3/6, and maybe even higher until...

I was awfully tired in the morning going to work, as I was playing until 4AM in the morning getting 3rd place in the MSOP Triple Draw event. But however tired I was, I was happy - and not just because of my 3rd place finish, and the chance to move up to 5/T, but because I gave my boss the resignation letter the day before, I would see my girlfriend first time in 3 months and going home with her to leave the whole shit behind and start a poker carrier. I was walking into our office with a smile and the idea of telling my colleagues my 3rd place finish, but instead of it I heard the news. Full Tilt Poker shut down. The place where more than half of my bankroll was, and some of my stakers' money too, shut down.

I came home in August 2011 still being shocked by the news and by losing... khmm... half of my bankroll being frozen. I think I had a borderline bankroll for 2/4, but decided to start from 1/2, so that I could rebuild my game after the long break, and to get my confidence back. Honestly I ran pretty good for a while, being able to play (or at least take shots at) 3/6 again. If someone would've told me what was coming, I'd just straight up laugh at his face and ask him for a good HU battle.

But it came. Exactly at the time when it hurt the most - when I got my confidence back and felt I was playing well. Not to cry over it that much: I lost around 1100BB in the next 5 months. Although that might sound like a lot, part of it was because I moved to high rake networks with rakeback, so after rakeback it's 'just' around 450-500BB, but still. I was playing 1/2 at the end, and basically wrecked by that downswing. At some point, I was like if I have to step back another limit I just quit poker or something. The only thing that kept the hope living is that neither me nor fat better players than me couldn't find any huge leaks in my game, but after ~800BBs it's pretty hard to accept that there's nothing wrong, "it's just variance". Still, kept on playing, because somewhere deep I must have known that I'm better than most, and - at least in theory - I can beat the games.

If someone would've told me what was coming, I'd just straight up laugh at his face and tell him/her to fuck off. And now, just 3 months after the deepest point, I'm here. Living the dream. Playing the stakes I thought I may never play. And slowly realizing it is a great feeling - I fear I still can't believe it, but I made sure that this wouldn't effect my game. (It's funny, during today's session playing 3 tables I asked myself what stakes I'm playing at that moment, and I couldn't answer without looking at the tables.:) - They were all 5/T tables.)

And it all wouldn't have been possible without... but really, no kidding, it literally wouldn't have been possible! Without 3 people in my life, who are one by one made miracles in my poker game and in my life as well: Toma, who has been there for me when I was at the real bottom, and still being patient, help me to get through it, analyzing my play, and... just being there. Hood, my coach, who built my confidence from the absolute bottom to the healthy level (or maybe even a bit over healthy:P), and fixed ALL the leaks in my game, and showed me his approach to poker: keeping a balance between grinding and being a solid player. And last, but for sure not even close to the fucking least my girlfriend, who has always been there for me when I was down, and who gave me as much love as I could never imagine I could get from someone, and just accepting me for who I am, and... and for existing really.:) Thank you all!!!

Ok, so that's it, I'm not gonna be this emotional for a very long time now, so don't worry. Will go back to math and analysis instead of emotions and whining.:)

Long time no see...

Since it's exam season I had a little blank time in my blog, but it's gonna be updated more frequently from now on I hope.

I thought about starting a new "hand(s) of the day/week" type of section, where I'd go through some actual hands more in-depth, but we'll see.

Until then, let's listen to one of my newly discovered old favourites, the Diablo Swing Orchestra!

I'm evil too...

Sophie (aka girlfriend aka Woman with a capital W) sent me a link to this picture:

Me: Honey, you know why Good Guy Greg is a fictional character, right?

The real evil...

When someone sets the deadline of a compulsory homework in uni just to 3 days after Diablo III has been released... you get to know what evil really means.

5/T here I come... yes

Ok, I wrote yesterday's post, then had a session, and found a benevolenter playing 80/60 with an empty left-hand seat, so I had to give him company. It led to a session where I was actively looking for 5/T tables too, and honestly I don't mind that, I played well, and found good tables. Also I played with Bryce!

5/T here I come... not

Good news: I gathered the bankroll that I set to the absolute minimum to play 5/T - it means if good luck comes my way I may be able to forget 2/4 and introduce myself to the 5/T players in the very close future.

Bad news: With the volume I played in the last 1.5 months I can't comfortably move up any limits. I played a session today (first in 4 days), and felt I didn't even know the rules of the game. I was rusty and had to play ~100 hands to get back to the grinding mode. That's awfully frightening for me, I have to play more in the future, and not just more, but frequent too. After the fucking exams and end-of-the-semester shit go down I'll focus on this aspect of my game. I have to, sadly.

Vasorrú Rózsa

//English version

This woman right there is the Minister (Ministress? stress for sure...) of Education in Hungary, who is doing a pretty good job massively fucking up everything she can in education. (E.g. if you attend a university financed by the government you have to stay in the country to "work it back", or you have to pay it back, etc.)

Caption says: "I guess I believe in the witches again... they mostly hurt the kids."

Chavviness of suits

I've just spent more than half an hour discussing with Toma (a fellow poker player friend of mine whom I speak daily) what is the chavviest suit in poker. We couldn't agree on it at all, so I'd like you to post your order of suits from the pimpest to the chavviest. Also, if you have time, please let me know why you think the way you do. (And everybody who says hearts is the pimpest please also send me your nicknames so that I could instantly mark you as fish.)

My list (from the pimpest to the chavviest): diamonds/blue (not a question), spades(if black), hearts/red, clubs/green, spades(if yellow)

PS: only upside of this half an hour was that I learnt a new word (chavvy)
PS2: BTW the reason for discussing was that he had the second chavviest Royal Flush yesterday. (The one where he flops the draw, and the river completes it.)


//Hungarian version

Tomával ma vagy fél órán keresztül azon vitatkoztunk, hogy mi a legputtóbb szín, de nem sikerült megegyezésre jutnunk. Ha van időtök, írjátok le, hogy nálatok mi a sorrend.

Nálam: ld. az angol posztot.

Lingo: Protection

This is going to be a repost of my rambling on lingo and protection: here it is in Hungarian.

I've been thinking for a long time, if the first of the Lingo series should be about protection or "raising" (in Hungarian lingo betting is called raising by a lot, also raising called 3betting, etc. #NLFTW), honestly both of them are driving me mad, but the fate has decided for me, so let's talk about protection.

People, please understand FFS, what protection is. Not because I ask you nicely, or because I'm posh in poker or anything like that, but because by using the expression wrong, you just show that you don't have a fucking clue about what you're talking about. So once and for all, let's make it clear for you.

There are two, and only two basic reasons for being agressive: getting better hands to fold (bluff) or getting worse hands to call (value). In specific cases, however, an agressive action can have side-effects (rarely good reasons) for it, which will add a little to our expected value. One of these is protection.

Protection means that you can make your opponent fold a certain amount of equity.. Make someone fold, get it? That's why I get frustrated all the time when I see or hear something like "I raise here for protection against his flush draws". Do you really think he would fold a flushdraw for a-million-to-one? Oh, no? So we raise because we have equity edge over those hands? So we are valueraising, right? Then why the hell you call it protection?

For example, you can bet a smaller pair or A hi for protection in a huge pot to make Villain fold 6 outs against you (they won't ever fold more, so...), and it's probably better than any other option. But these kind of situations are pretty rare, betting for pure protection is close to a non-existing thing in my mind (of course talking about FLHE, not NLHE or PLO), therefore we usually use it as a combination with a bluff or valuebet.

I hope I could make things more clear, and I'll see less "raise for protection against a small pocketpair" type of bullshit on the forums... (I think it's maybe less of an issue in native English forums BTW, still I can hear these stuffs here and there, but in Hungarian it's just amazingly often misused.)

Szumma i megy 0-tól 24-ig: 2012.03.28. i:00

You are god obviously

- hangzott el a "regulár" szájából, amikor párszáz HU kéz és ~50BB elvesztése után kiült, miután sikerült 6betelnem a riverre leeső flush-sét nem nut fullal. Kb. én is így éreztem az elmúlt két napban. Pedig már majdnem elfelejtettem, hogy a húzókkal nem csak a frekvencia megtartása végett blöffölünk... Running like god LDO.

What have I done?

Vasárnap este:
Én: "Elkísérlek az első mozgólépcsőig." (Értem ezalatt a Corvin pláza közelebbi mozgólépcsőjét.)
Asszony: "A metróig?"
Én: "A metrónál hol van második mozgólépcső?"
Asszony: "Mittomén, aszittem levelingelsz."

Másik - ma chat:
Én: "Nézd meg ezt az érdekes videót: " - a terv az, hogy megnyitja, és lepimpinkinelem. (Lásd még: rickroll)
Asszony: "Még szerencse, hogy Linux alatt vagyok, és nem indult el a videó. Dodged it like a BOSS."

Mai kudos + a rinyálás ereje

A Cake bevezette 50$ fölött is a FL HUSnG-kat kb. 2 héttel miután javasoltam nekik. Azt hiszem, ez megmutatja, hogy igenis mindenki változtathat nagy dolgokon is.

Hood

"Hi Madorjan, I watched through your vid, your play is certainly very good, you already have a pretty strong game." - Hood

Ha lenne ilyen out-of-the-world mosolygós smiley, most beraknám.

Partypoker support

Kurva anyád, Suzana, honestly...

Suzana: Welcome to Live Help! How can I help you?
Suzana: Please confirm your last name and date of birth for security reasons.
ADORJÁN: Hi
ADORJÁN: *************
Suzana: Thanks for the confirmation. Please give me a moment while I retrieve your account details.
Suzana: how can I help you?
ADORJÁN: Is it me or are there really not any HU FL SNGs between the 22 and 109 ones?
Suzana: let me check
ADORJÁN: because if that's the case, I'd like to strongly suggest it
ADORJÁN: to have some
Suzana: if you select cash games and then Fixxed Limit and in all other fields leave All will see what we do offer
Suzana: there are games at 30/60, 50/100 level
ADORJÁN: it's SnG not cash game
ADORJÁN: HU FL SnG
Suzana: what exactly you have selected
Suzana: the heads up games are under cahs games
ADORJÁN: ok I'm gonna go clear, there are not any
ADORJÁN: please implent
Suzana: under 1 table, Sit and Go there are tables for 2 players
Suzana: FL
ADORJÁN: that's it
Suzana: they are just not names Heads up
Suzana: there currently speed tables with buy in 33 and 55
Suzana: just select Sit & Go and then 1 table
Suzana: then sort the list of tables by game so can see the FL ones
ADORJÁN: 33 and 55 ones are not 2 player ones
ADORJÁN: 2 player = HU you know
ADORJÁN: but as I said, there aren't any, and I would like you to implement it
Suzana: yes, but this is if you look for FL hol'em
Suzana: there are under FL 7 card stud
Suzana: FL 7 card stud Hi-Lo
ADORJÁN: since it clearly doesn't make sense at all to have none of these limits, but higher and lower
ADORJÁN: oh it's so sad that 7 card stud is not holdem...
Suzana: it may have no sense for you , but the games are offered for many and different players- if there is no interest in the games you are looking for they are not offered
ADORJÁN: there are interest on every other site that offers them, so that's not an excuse
Suzana: I can escalate your suggestion to our respective department but will not be able to guaranteetaht such tables will be offered
Suzana: this is your opinion:)
ADORJÁN: that would be nice, thanks
Suzana: and we can keep arguing but this will not add the tables:)
Suzana: I will let my colleagues know
Suzana: and if they decide we can offer the games- they will be shown in the lobby soon:)
ADORJÁN: no, that's a fact - look at Stars, Boss media, iPoker, etc. lobbies - the players waiting there are not my opinion IMO
Suzana: my colleagues will look into this
ADORJÁN: you're right, no point in arguing, just let the department know, thanks for that
Suzana: you are welcome:)
ADORJÁN: that would be all, thanks for your help, looking forward to the changes
ADORJÁN: have a nice day, bye
Suzana: :)
Suzana: I hope we can offer you more games so you can enjoy the games:)

DiMat + Csöves

Mivel nem vagyok egy kifejezetten izgalmas ember, és nem kifejezetten izgalmas emberrel nem kifejezetten gyakran történnek kifejezetten érdekes dolgok, ezért a mindennapi blogposztolástól továbbra is eltekintek, azonban ha történik valami érdekes/említésre méltó/aggasztó/felháborító, azt mindenféleképpen megosztom. Plusz még ami eszembe jut. Mai sziporka:

Jövök haza, anyuka a ~6 éves kislányával előttem. Aluljáróba le, az időtől, a hidegtől, az alkoholtól, de saját önérzetétől nem megtört csöves már ott áll, rázogatja a kis műanyag poharát, miközben valamit mormog - kíváncsi vagyok ő tudja-e, mit. Anyuka gyerekkel szó nélkül elmegy mellette, én azért egy "mmm, sry"-t (lásd alant) elejtettem.
Kislány: -Mit akart a bácsi?
Anyuka: -Pénzt.
Kislány: -Miért akart pénzt?
Anyuka: -Mert nincs lakása, nincs munkája... és éhes.

Azon kívül, hogy Anyukának maximálisan igaza van, hogy a fenébe mondhat ilyet? Kislánynak nyilván nem az fog ebből lejönni, hogy (szélsőséges esetben) Anyuka (kevésbé szélsőségesben Apuka) sokat dolgozik a pénzéért, amiből alig tudnak valahogy megélni, és stb. stb. stb. Kislánynak az fog lejönni, hogy Anyuka nem segít valakin, akinek rossz, mert éhes. Kíváncsi vagyok, melyik nevelési tanácsadó könyvben olvasta ezt.

Apa kezdődik!

Eljött a "nagy nap". 1 év kihagyás után újra 4-6-os, újra 6.30-as kelés, újra az életem felét a Bolyai Teremben töltöm. Nem baj, próbáljuk a dolgok jó oldalát nézni, legalább újra emberek között leszek, és újra kimozdulok. Nem lesz az olyan borzalmas, nem lesz... tényleg.

Hogy a francba?

A kérdés nagyon egyszerű: top mikro/smallstakes LHE coach nemzetközi oldalon, hogy a francba lehet, hogy egy 9fős asztalon, amin 2 játékos van összesen, az egyikről tudja, hogy reg - hogy a francba ül be egy teljesen random helyre (persze messze az ismeretlen játékos baljától)??? És így fogadjak el tőle tanácsokat?

((Mostanában eléggé leállt a blog, de mivel rólam szól, ez is jelent valamit - update-ek hamarosan.))

Nyavajgós poszt.

Az alábbi grafikonon az elmúlt 2 nap eredménye látható: a kék vonal a valós eredmény, míg a piros az utcánkénti várható érték alapján kalkulált eredmény. (Tudom, kóklerség, de valami kell, hogy lenyugtassam magam.) Fontos, a táblázat rake-mentes, azaz ebből nincs levonva a rake (ami a piros vonalat kb. 0-ba vinné, a kéket meg le a picsába). Most már tényleg kéne vmi megoldást találni, hogy ezeket ne manuálisan kelljen begépelni. (Az olvashatatlanság miatt: 740 kéz, a vízszintes szintezés 50-enként van.)

Ideje lenne már kimászni ebből a szarból, mert kezd sok lenni.

Miért is?

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